Beginning a Blog

Introspection can be good for the soul but hell on the to do list, because while you are lost in pondering the mysteries of the universe and the inner workings of you clogged brain, deadlines come and go, important emails are missed and connections slip by with nary a flicker of your eye. 

So today (15 May 2012) I have decided to give myself a bit of an accountability partner by actually blogging. This may seem trivial to most but as those nearest to be can tell you I am a hard nut to crack, a private person who share only the surface with the world. An introspective wanderer and deep thinker I sometimes get lost in my own mind and neglect to take action on important things. In my mind blogging is about sharing yourself with potentially the whole world, and I have an aversion to putting myself out there a la Carrie Bradshaw on a city bus. But I need to get out of my own head and  into the world more. 

So today is my first post. Bear with me if I ramble and take the long winding path to an unclear destination. The journey is more important than the destination and my destination is vary hazy at the moment. I can see some stops along the way (such as grad school, couple hood, mommy-dom, world traveler) but the final destination and even some of these stops on the life train is not clear and frankly that scares me. 

It scares me like jumping off a 10 foot platform into the deep end of the pool. No matter how much I know that I will come right back up or that there are several life guards who are there to make sure I do I cannot take that first step forward. In training they tell you “look up, look down, look to the horizon and take a step,” and I never do until they tell me I have 30 seconds or I will not qualify for Combat Water Survival then I come off the platform like a demented flying squirrel.

Countdown to the jump

That is how it all feels to me I am anxiously waiting for someone to count me down to failure before I take a step and I need to change that. It is no way to enjoy life journey always living in fear. So today I am looking up and down and at the horizon and taking a giant step for myself.

Hope you stay with me for the journey and chime in with your experiences.

Lady Littlefoot

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. ~ 2Tim 1:7 (NKJV)

3 thoughts on “Beginning a Blog

  1. We are two peas in a pod! This post sums me up to the ‘T’. I think too much and sometimes do too little but I am on the path to change that aspect of myself. I’ve not done things out of fear and I have come to regret it but from now forward fear will be a stranger, just a face I pass on the street. Good luck to you and I hope your journey leads you right where you ought to be :)

  2. Hello Flaming Star,

    Thank you for stopping by. Your journey and the sharing of the knowledge you have gained has helped me to begin this journey of my own.

    I hope to discover much about myself and to share that discovery with other.

    See you in the comment section.

    LittlFoot

  3. I like that, I can get lost in my head too. Here lately it’s become too easy to do so. I have to check myself so I don’t get so focused on the negative, what I don’t have and forget all the wonderful things I do. With hyperthyroidism comes some depression but I can’t get caught up in it or it will overtake me. Staying connected helps me, uplifts me too. Because I also have a tendency to isolate myself and that’s not good. What I’ve found with blogging is that it helps me release a lot of feelings good and bad instead of bottling them up as I normally would and it has helped me be more introspective without going on a wandering expedition in my brain. I’m so excited about your blog and can’t wait to see what you have to share.

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