There is an old saying “curiosity killed the cat.” But what most of us don’t realize that there is a second part to that statement. Curiosity may have killed the cat, “but satisfaction brought him back.” I remember being in high school, I was about 15 or 16 years old when I first heard that and to this day I get a little chuckle out of it. I mention curiosity because I think that is one of my best and worst qualities. I am inordinately curious about a disparate amount of things. And sometimes, as I go on this journey of discovery and before you know it I am lost down one rabbit hole or another.
For example, I love nature shows. Shows on storms, on how the earth formed, on different types of geological activities and how they are related and how man’s activities are effecting the planet and what can be done to slow the tide of global warming. I would watch show after show and then Google anything that I wanted more information about. But I never start out with a goal in mind. I just want to know EVERYTHING! As I tumbled deeper into this particular rabbit hole, taking one twist and turn after another I start to wonder, why am I doing this? What do I hope to gain out of following this particular area of interest? What do I hope to gain from this exercise and more importantly what am I hoping to find?
That last question sent me on a whole other quadrant of the rabbit hole. I realized that question can be applied to my whole life.I have what I describe as itchy feet. I am constantly plotting my next adventure; pondering, where do I want to go next? What sites do I want to see and in which order. My feet are seriously itchy for some new ground. At the moment they aren’t going anywhere so the itchy feet’s stagnancy is giving the inquisitive mind some things to consider. Inquisitive mind wants to know why do you have this penchant, this need, this yang for foreign and faraway places? What do you hope to find there? Is there something in particular you are looking to achieve
What I keep coming back to daily is, if you don’t know what you’re looking for, why are you searching?This particular post has been over a week in the making, possibly two because I really don’t have a definitive answer to that question. I know I want to travel and see all the beautiful places in the world. Whether by God’s hands or man’s ingenuity, there are some truly spectacular things I’d like to see before I am returned unto the dust from which I came.The nature shows are my way of getting in touch with my inner scientist who is still extraordinarily curious about the world and how it came to be as it is and the arguments between Creationists and Evolutionary Theorists (another topic for another day). So I keep watching the shows and reading things online and trying to figure out how to become a premier scientist who speaks eloquently and knowledgeable and passionately on their chosen subject. There is so much more that I want to know and just as much that I want to do but where do I begin. I keep asking myself “What’s this life for?”
I don’t have an end point -at least not yet, so setting the course has been problematic. So I will go back to ruminating on these and the other things not spoken of and hope that I can settle my mind once I find a direction to point my itchy feet towards.
*I know this post is a little all over the place, I’m trying to stay on point but my mind keeps flitting off in a million different directions. I feel a little discombobulated about it so it this post disappears in time you know why.